I can’t believe that in 3 days time, I am gonna be in Greece for my new job. I am excited, but so nervous as well! I hope I get to work with some good people, and do a good job.

I am now erasing you from my memory and that you ever existed. People like that are not worth a second of anyone’s life. It’s pathetic.

There. Done.

If I never see your face again I don’t mind

I’ve got a stupid cold and is hoarse. It’s crap! And also, in 2 days time I was supposed to be on my way somewhere special and having another time of my life. But no no.

I am confused. I am torn. I am uncertain. I am lost.

“Well, this has got to die
This has got to stop
This has got to lie down
With someone else on top

So why’d you have to lie?
I take it I’m your crutch
The pillow in your pillow case
It’s easier to touch
When you think you’re safe
You fall upon your knees
But you’re still within your picture
you still forget the breeze,
and she may rise if I sing you down
And she may wisely lay claim to the ground”

I don’t know how to deal with it. I miss like total madness, and every day is a challenge right now. But I know it’s time to realize and let go. It’s just so unimaginably difficult. I am gonna miss him every day for the rest of my life, and wonder what could have been.

Baby, now that I’ve found you I can’t let you go…

Last night I dreamt that I kissed George Clooney! I remember that when I looked into his eyes I though that he didn’t look as good as I had imagined. I had my hand on his neck, and his hair felt very rough. And gray. But hey, at least that was no big surprise.

Best. Right. Now.
So brilliant.